What we really want?

Sometimes I wonder if I really want to be like this or to be like that. Sometimes I wonder whether am I beginning to be foolish or just too kind. Sometimes I wonder if am I still me or am I already pretending to be another person.

I often come to a situation of wanting to have something, wanting to be somewhere, and wanting to have someone. And for these cases, I ended up being too immature, being too possessive, and being not too clever or simply being too dumb in my decisions and actions.

We live in the world of possibilities. Possibilities where we could buy, we could own, and we could have someone that we want. But for most instances, we forget to think before we act, we forget to sleep before we dream, we forget to think about ourselves first before others, and we forget to see that what we are doing is already insanity.

Maybe it's human nature. Maybe it's who we really are. Maybe it's just a manifestation of our desperation and  too impossible imagination of what we want.

We may not be at our right selves sometimes, but we are happy for it, though the happiness is just too abrupt like a simple blink of an eye. So before we lose track of who we really are and before we lose the wisdom that is lying within us; We must be a sentinel of the results of the things that we want, We must be a good Samaritan to thy selves, and We must be awake and alert of the what is really going on...