Am I Ready?

Am I ready to come back to the place I have been longing for?
Am I ready to return to the place of my comfort?
Am I ready to go back where I used to be?
Am I ready?

Simple you may say, but the truth is, it's not that easy.

Think first of the pros and cons of the decisions you make.
Consider the opportunity cost a specific action may lead to.
Contemplate on the end results of it for both short term and long term events.

But at the end of the day, still, one and only thing really matters, "Will you forever be happy and 100% be fully contented?"

I Just Wished...

Sometimes I wished I was silent.
Silent to not make any mistakes.
Silent to not get overwhelmed and not spoil the placidity of the moment.

Sometimes I wished I didn't had that so much humor.
Humor to not be marked as boisterous.
Humor to not create the wrong impression that I'm over reacting.

But I always wished that I am both all the time.

All the time to express who I really am.
All the time to establish the perfect momentum.
All the time to not ruin expectations and assumptions.
All the time to be so much me and be very happy.

I just wished...

Introducing the new "ME"

Everyday in our life, we see different kinds of people, different norms on places that we see and found, different cultures where we are bound to adhere with.

We are used to the maxim: "When In Rome, Do What The Romans Do". Learn to adjust to your new abode and accept and do their practices and culture, or simply be like them. But, do you know that there is more to that saying than the usual thinking?

When we adjust, we just don't simply say or act what they do, we don't just fair ourselves to them, if we can, we supersede them! We excel! We outwit them!!!

Just because you're a neophyte doesn't mean that you'll be an outcast and be outplayed by them. You change yourself! Changing for the better or even changing for the best!

Be strong and be idealistic. You act what they will plan in the future. You say what will they think in the near time. You initiate first the idea what all will follow sooner or later.

You Speak! You Act! You Lead!!!

Where Am I?

I don't know why am I here?, what is my purpose of living in this place?, could it be because out of my curiosity?, or could it be because of me being to ambitious?

I still don't know why. But maybe, one day, it will just pop out of my mind and then I will understand.

Life is just a matter of what we choose. We learn to accept the way things are going as this is the risk that we took to begin with. What is happening are the pros and cons of our decision.

We might look back someday in two ways, the first is remorse, and the other one is fulfillment.

We can't really prognosticate what lies ahead. What is beneath the gloomy cloud and what is in line after the promising rainbow. What we only have is hope. Hope to be happy, Hope to be successful, and Hope that we did the right decision...

A Simple: "I Care..."

We always hear the words: take care, how are you?, i miss you; all of which expresses your endearment, your caress, or simply your tender loving care for someone. Its just a matter of choice of how you say it, how you show it, how you make it. The only thing that matter is that you made an effort to express it.

Its not important for a person on how you deliver the thought that you really care. It matters not if it is too early or so late. It also does not make it less if you just say it, rather than show it. The important thing is that you made the person felt that you really care.

A minute or just a few seconds of call; A short poem email or just a simple instant message buzz, A long composed or just a short or even just one word of text message is enough for a person to feel that he/she is important.

Just say, I'm thinking of you, I'm really missing you, or just a simple: "I Care..."

I wished I was never that brave!

I wished that I did not have the courage to express what I felt about that person, cause it only creates a feeling of aloofness. I wished I did not have the confidence to directly show what I hid from within, cause it only made the loud voices go silent. I wished I was never that noble enough, to be tactless and just says what comes out of my mind, and not considering the weather of the situation. I wished I did not take the ride to the short and quick path and should have just taken the long and winding trail.

I wished I have just been the rather be than what I have been!

    I'd rather be silent than be boastful and lose something that you treasured most. I'd rather stay contained than be obsessive to keep that someone close. I'd rather keep the placidity of the situation than be aggressive and mess the whole simplicity and greatness of the situation.

    And again, the cliche that always and will always linger on: "We Accept, We Learn, And We Move On..."

L-O-V-E

I could never think of other reason to make a person so much happy other than being in love. Love is beautiful, joyful, meaningful, and full of so much pleasure and is indeed wonderful. It even makes a person insane because of so much obsession and creates a heavenly feeling that there is nothing more that you could ask for.

Yes, its true that all of the aforementioned things are in no doubt so much perfect. No problems to mind and no distractions to get rid of. Just you and the other individual that completes you.

But what if love is full of sorrows,  disappointments, and remorse?

You experience the feeling of hopelessness which rooted from silent rejection. The formation of gloomy weather within you caused by being disdained.

It maybe a sure stab in the heart but it creates a strong shield to withstand all the struggles of life. It gives you a  powerful strength to defend you from your blind spots weaknesses. And illuminates the dark side of your life on your way to a brighter and promising tomorrow...

Too short???

Could it be possible that in just a short span of time, you can quickly say that you already like or love a person?, or even come to a point of you saying that you've found the right one that you want to be with for the rest of your life.

Some people will raise their eyebrows, especially those who are still stuck in the world of conservatism. In one part they are right, because making quick assumptions and abrupt decisions may lead to disappointments due to so much expectations.

But, would it be wrong, if you yourself knows that what you're doing is right. That it gave you the happiness, where no one had given to you. That it always creates a smile whenever you will hear something from this person. And that it made you even think what your future is going to be with this person by your side.

If you will ask me, I say, I care not for whatever other people thinks. I fear not for the stigmatism from other people of being easy to get. Much more I defy from the notion of: relationships formed in just a short period of time will end up in a short period of time as well.

It doesn't matter if a relationship was conceived in a short while, and it also matters not what others perceives and believes out of this.  If you know  that what you see, what you hear, and what you feel is true, I think that no one can stop you. And what could be wrong, if you feel so much happiness in perpetuity just by being with this person. As the saying goes: "You don't need to eat an entire cake just to know if it taste good"...

PEOPLE CHANGE

As one of my colleague once said: "People Change". Yes its true, change is really inevitable in a person, but the thing there is, is it a change for better or a change for worst?

Sometimes people don't realize that they become the person whom others don't want them to be. Well, who are we to blame them?, we might be one of the causes why they become who they are now. As there are different factors that affects one's personality and gradually changes that person's life. One will be the environment where the person lives, another will be the surroundings where the person works, and lastly, the peers whom the person fraternize with.

It might be wrong and selfish to say but, we want to bring them back the way they were before. Before, where you are happy going out with them. Before, where you are full of enthusiasm with your conversations. Before, where all you think is to relax, enjoy, and laugh with them.

But, what can we do to see and to hear the person that we have been longing for?, where we don't have the courage to tell to the person that they have changed and that we are saddened of what had happen with your relationship with each other?

Maybe, the right thing to do is to accept the fact that the person has become who he/she is now. And sad to say, we must adhere to the cliche: "friends come and go"...

Too Nice???

Do we always have to please everybody?, rather do we always have to be nice to other people even if it make us look like a fool? I personally have nothing against being nice to people, but when it comes to a point of abusing that kindness within you, I would definitely object to the notion of too considerate.

People have different ways of showing how dominant they are. Dominant to a point where someone is being belittled by that dominance of that person. And if that instance happen, will let yourself be down at that moment?, some my agree(those who are too nice, but I don't know if there are such people), but most probably won't.

Why would spoil that person from doing that to you again and again?(yes it's becoming to be a routine). If you allow such act to be done to you, you are not helping both side to change for the better. You are making that person feel comfortable of what he/she is doing, where it comes to a point that it will sinks to that person's mind that it is okay to be like that and to do that to you. And on your part, it will make you less of a person and it might even lower your self-esteem.

Let just say that, We are human created to love and respect and we are equal in GOD'S eyes. So to speak, we must love and respect others, and treat them the right way, which is "EQUALNESS"...

I Am Me!!!

I am who I am, an old cliche but still being used. Whenever people say that I should change my personality, the way I talk, the way I think, and the way I communicate and interact with people, I couldn't stop thinking, "Is there really something wrong with me?". It is true and I admit it that sometimes I can sense that what I'm doing or my actions are beyond my prerogative, but, this is who I am, and as far I as my whole personality is concern, I'm still in the boundary of good, nice, and humorous.


You can judge me by what you see, by what you hear, by what you feel. I am what you see, what you hear, what you feel. And if you can't accept me for what you see from me, from what you hear from me, from what you feel from me, then I don't think you should still mingle and socialize with me. You Should Accept me!!!

I don't want to be arrogant for bragging that I love being myself, I know that I have flaws, and what do you think I'm doing about this?, nothing?. I accept criticisms and make use of them to improve and enhance more my personality and of as a human being.

I can't be the one that you want me to be. I have my own identity, I have my own decisions, and I have my own einstein in me. Love me for being ME. Respect me for being ME. And Accept me for being ME...

"SONO SOLO"

Never have I felt this loneliness inside me. I don't know what is the reason. Is it because of being too overcrowded with so much problem and no one is there to give you the exact help that you needed?, or could it be because I had enough of celebrating my singleness?


I don't know what to think or what to do. Am I not satisfied with the way my life is going? Do I need to change my view of life because time is running out and things that should be done must be done, or else everything will be affected and the result may not be that too nice to appreciate or even to accept.


But come to think of it, considering the people that surrounds me. Am I really alone on this journey? Am I not lucky enough to have them beside me. They may not be with me every time to make me comfortable or to make me feel that hey you're not alone, but at least in their own simple way they make me special in every social events that we are together.


Life is not perfect as they say. That's life, you are only allowed to live once, and in that span of time, you must learn to appreciate even just the most simplest thing in this world, and must learn to accept your fate , cause you can't enjoy life to the fullest if your bound thinking the if's and what if's of life. Be happy with who you are right now, with whom  you are at this moment, and of what you are today...